I am realizing things about myself.
HEAVEN KNOWS I'M MISERABLE NOW - THE SMITHS
I have been for the past few months or so, but for a while, I was in denial. I think all of my life I was in denial, or at least a deep form of repression. Only a few times did I allow myself to even think about it, and the rest of the time I tried to convince myself the opposite was true. I would vaguely try to explain things I found odd to my mom, and she would say that it was normal and everyone does that. So I believed it.